Dear friend, I hope this reaches you well.
I was reading your blog the other day, and well, it was kinda sad to see you so depressed and confused over several matters in your life right now.
Yeah, you're not exactly having the best time of your life right now (which you should be). In fact, you should be enjoying your three-month break from studies immensely 'cause vacations like this won't come by in the near future anymore. Sadly, you've been caught up with an unfortunate fever and also several issues which you have been having complicated thoughts about.
First of all I really hope that you recover fully from your sickness before the eve of Chinese New Year so that you can enjoy quality time with your family and all. Also I hope that you take care of your health especially when you're flying to somewhere humid and cold. Don't eat too much mandarin oranges!
The Meaning of CNY:
Furthermore, I too hope that you can fully appreciate and cherish your time with your family this coming Chinese New Year. Although it may not be what you have in mind ideally (with you having your own plans to visit your relatives and friends), but remember that Chinese New Year is actually about being together with your family. That is the actual meaning of Chinese New Year. That is why we have a traditional Reunion Dinner with our family members one day before Chinese New Year.
Don't worry, you might miss out the so-called CNY feel, but keep in mind that family is more meaningful than all those superficial CNY deco, angpows, tv programmes. Those are only skin-deep (but undeniably they play an important role in the celebrations). What is truly important is to treasure the time with your family together. Take it as an opportunity to take a break away from the strained gaiety of celebrations. Be different! Enjoy your holidays at New Zealand, inhale the fresh air, appreciate the calming beauty of nature, quiet your mind and thoughts. And come back a happier, more relaxed person, ok?
What You Want Will Come:
Another thing is to not worry about your bowling issues. You're a really talented bowler. Don't give up so easily just because you're getting a lil' impatient in getting a good-quality ball. Just have a little more patience and trust there someone up there would grant your wish. The good things in life have a more special place in our hearts because they're harder to come by. So don't think of quitting! It's such a waste! You can aspire to be a really skilled player, really.
Here's what you can do: Visualise (imagine) that you're at the bowling alley, and you're holding your own ball. You stare into those bowling pins, then you step forward and hook the ball perfectly. Imagine the high revolution and the satisfying way the ball hooks into the pocket! You don't need to do anything to get what you want, except to imagine it and believe that your imagination will come true. Maybe it sounds absurd to you but it's actually a very well-known and effective method that many many people have been using! You'll just need to have Faith. Ok? So don't give up! You still need to teach me, hehe =P
I really hope this makes you feel better. Cheer up dude! And Happy Chinese New Year!