i keep telling myself... ...

i keep running... i have to....

i must....

suppress

all these...

unneccessary feelings....

i will....

i will.......

i will

you will.

it's such an incomprehensible disgrace.

that the 'premier shopping destination' does not even house a bookstore.

what have we stooped to? creatures

lusting after material indulgence! striving to fulfill narcissistic desires!

and this degradation has further spiralled

when sleazy entrepreneurs grabbed hold

of this "golden opportunity" to capitalise

on our carnal desires, to maximise profits,

to exploit us economically!

calling ourselves forerunners of civilisation by erecting mall after mall,

by tearing down historical giants to "enlarge the highway for more traffic"

such bullshit!

where are the bookstores? where are the libraries?

feed our starving souls lest we are nothing more than strutting soulless shells!

"invite" is such an interesting word.

not only it has a dual meaning.

its meanings are in perfect opposite to each other.

it can mean hospitality.

it can mean hostility.

very, very interesting.

tonight i can write

for the night air smells

of ideas

of inspiration

of intellectual stimulation -

it's such a pity that

sleep is more important

but i don't want to resist

the temptation -

tonight i can write

that the night air smells

of newfound love

of heartwarming kisses

of you -

drowned in legalese.

i can be very friendly.

i can be very nice.

i can be very bitchy.

i am sociable.

but i'm not.

it makes me wonder why.

独白话语 #2

梦想与现实存在的差距，往往都会带着丑陋的面具，冲着我们而来。 这是无可避免的。

理想是美妙的；现实，却是很残酷的。是血腥的。

唯一能战胜现实的，是热衷。是那份由始至终坚持不懈的激情与毅力。但是，可以紧握当初心中那股澎湃的热情的，想必屈指可数。就算再潇洒的个性，也得向可悲的金钱主义低头。就算再风流的艺术家，也必须向自己的局限低头。

是的，我们都共存于一个物质世界。没有钱，是万万不能的。

但，有些人却沉醉于虚拟的钞票世界里。

静思一想，钱是一切吗？ 人，如果为钱而活，那生命的意义何在呢？

人，应该为的是梦想而活。有人说过，人因梦想而伟大。

梦想，即是生命的原因。

放弃了梦想，我们还有活下去的意义吗？